President Monson said that the only thing constant in life is change. Well, I've tasted a lot of that this year... and for some reason, I'm having an especially hard time with this one...
That certain change is that my baby brother, Camren graduated from high school(as I already reported on) I didn't have too big of a problem with that one... the issue I have is that he is now leaving for S.U.U.... TOMORROW!!! I really don't want him to go!
Don't get me wrong, I am absolutely thrilled for him and the great time he is without a doubt, going to have. It's just sad I guess because time goes by SO fast... I suppose I always thought everything would stay the same and even though time was continually passing, my Gate Gang family would all stay the same. Kael and Cam would always be the little kids of the family (Dad really does still refer to them as the little boys..so I guess he and I are in the same boat ) Let me be embarrassingly real, in my little mind it was totally fine for me to move out, get married, move away, and have kids... but everything else needed to stay the same... for me :) and that crazy little made up thought in my nutty brain is totally messed up now because Cam is leaving and it's causing a major tornado and killing off the happy place that made that belief real... and completely sane... ;)
Obviously it's about time for me to figure out that time is going to keep passing, my brothers will keep moving on and my boys will keep growing and someday, (GASP!) my boys will be leaving for college.....
It seems like yesterday that I was moving out and now I guess it's his time. He'll be putting his papers in before we know it and then he'll be gone for two years and then he'll get married, have kids, and forget about me.....I'm selfish..... but at least I can admit it. :) I can also recognize that I can't take anything for granted with my Gate family or my current family. I'm a lucky girl... and I need to cherish every second I have with each of them...
I love you guys!!!
Have fun Cam... we love you :)
Me and Cam when he was in Primary Children's Hospital...
Cam, Me, and Kael...
RUN FAST....JUMP HIGH....AND ONLY LOOK BACK TO SEE HOW FAR YOU'VE COME :)
1 comment:
I got all teary reading your post! Who could forget about you - honestly? You're the most amazing person Ash! Your brothers are lucky to have you :) I love those pictures of you guys when you were younger - pricesless! Seroiusly priceless!
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